夏天和秋天 （一）

夏天和秋天是在网上认识。一位志趣相通，两个人的爱好又很接近，所以他们约好见面。见了面之后，秋天才发现真人和照片中的人不对版。照片中的是个凶神恶煞，可是夏天去是一个斯文人。那天过后，秋天就不愿意和夏天见面。

可笑的是，夏天不懂发生什么事，一直发简讯要和秋天见面。秋天给他的反应爱理不理。有时，甚至一通简讯也不回复！夏天着急了。明明好好的怎会发生这样的事？第二次，夏天知道秋天想要梦中婚礼的歌谱，就复印了，而且还烧了一片光碟要送给秋天。

那一个晚上，夏天收到讯息。“你要去哪里喝茶？”夏天天真以为有机会再见到秋天，二话不说就跑了出去，结果落了一场空。白跑一趟。他感到非常沮丧，是自己天真以为会和秋天见面。带着失望的心情回家去了。当然，夏天并没有因此而放弃，他继续努力要求秋天和他见一面。哪怕是把歌谱和光碟送出去也情愿了。

后来，皇天不负有心人。秋天答应了。他们见了第二次的面。这次，夏天才逗留一下就离开了。
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夏天继续和秋天保持联络。秋天也因此被夏天的真心而感动。后来，13.07-秋天答应夏天愿意成为兄弟。后来，他们关系越来越好。

第一次见面看你不太顺眼谁知道后来关系那么密切我们一个像夏天一个像秋天却总能把冬天变成了春天。

青年主日之感想

青年主日是年会所规定的一个主日。今年的主题为装备自己，出去宣教。讲员为陈华新牧师。感谢神，透过陈牧师的口向我们年轻人说话，教导我们如何装备自己，出去宣教。从经文（提摩太后书4：9-13）当中我们认识到上帝对我们每个人的呼召就是要做准备去收割那些已经成熟的庄稼。

以上经文，共有三大要点。

（一）我们要带马可。所谓的马可就是指着那些信心冷淡，顽皮，不可爱的，或者那些离开主的人。这是我们首要做的事。

（二）我们要带外衣。这里外衣指的是发自内心一个即简单又实际的行动，而不是指物质上的东西。外衣的的确确可以帮助人们抵御寒冷，可是它却不能把一个冰冷的心给温热起来。一个处在困苦、绝望中的人，觉得自己孤独，无助，我们能做些什么呢？轻轻拍拍他的肩膀，给他鼓励，胜过千言万语。这是一个行动上的表现。一个处在外国生病的朋友，我们不能立刻送药到他面前，我们可以透过不同管道去安慰他，如发简讯，打电话等。这些都是外衣。

（三）我们要带书和书卷。这里指的是我们要装备自己，就必须多读圣经，多看属灵书籍。没有准备好，哪能出去传福音呢？

今晚，我负责领唱。出来的效果还不错，不是自夸，乃要归荣耀给我们的上帝。看到特别是妇女会姐妹们，她们是那么样的开口赞美神，我真的很感动。走出去这首歌，意义特别的大。耶稣要我们往普天下去使万民做祂的门徒，所以我们应该要尽上本分，扩大祂的帐幕之地。神呼召祂的门徒不要停留在那里，单单信靠神对我们立下的应许。我选择这首歌是因为，我觉得我们应该有能力为主做一些事，只是我们往往停留在一个角落，认为自己不能。希望借着这首诗歌可以唤醒基督徒朋友们，神要我们做的事。

今年的主日，总算顺利进行。弟兄姐妹们，你们的付出与辛劳，神都在看。不要退步，继续向前。原著耶稣的爱与我们一起同在直到永远。

*记得要为五月一日及二日的生活营代祷。

是爱情吗？

一个爱上网的女孩小琴，喜欢在网络上交友，结交朋友。这也许是他的嗜好，让他可以自由自在在网上展现出自己，表达出自己真正内心的感受。

一天，他一如往常在网络上看他的交友帐户，就发现有一个男生曾经看过他的帐户。所以，他也好奇进去看看，可是户头里头什么照片也没有。就只有一张看不清楚的照片，其他的都是一些别人的照片。后来，发现原来那个男生发了讯息给自己。他就打开那信箱，原来只是几句问候的话。小琴就也回应了几句话。

后来，那位男生就被加入小琴的好友列表。两人开始聊天，后来还使用MSN聊天室。聊了之后，才知道那位男生的名字-天祁。天祁是一个钢琴老师，而小琴的梦想就是想学钢琴，所以两个人就非常谈得来。

他们就这样，一直聊，一直聊。。。。到了最后他们开始无话不说，不话不谈，就像是认识好久的朋友。后来，天祁向小琴讨了电话号码，两人也开始电话联络。

暑假到了，小琴就找机会到天祁家拜访。天祁是家中最小的孩子，人长得非常斯文、英俊潇洒，和一直小琴认为的不一样。就这样，两人在屋里聊了起来。有时吵吵，真像是一对情侣。由于灯光不是那样强，在一个非常时刻，天祁和小琴两眼相对，两个人越来越靠近对方。小琴心跳加速，非常害羞。不过还是接受天祁的吻。。。那一刻，整个世界似乎只有他们的存在，他们只想好好吻吻对方，那种力量是什么也分不开了。

就这样，小琴似乎已经爱上天祁。自从那一夜开始，小琴无时无刻挂念着天祁。到底天祁是怎样想的呢？这也是小琴所担心的。

时间过得好快，暑假一下就过去。两人被迫分割两地，他们只能透过那冰冷冷的话筒及聊天室互相联络。

直到有一天，恐怖的噩梦开始了，小琴所担心的也开始发生了。可能是小琴多情吧，天祁终于表达自己并不会爱上他。那一刻，对小琴来说是何等大的伤害！明明不喜欢我为什么还要和我。。？小琴伤心的想到，泪水在眼眶徘徊。小琴非常坚强，他告诉自己绝不会掉下眼泪。后来，小琴就决定和天祁结束这一场游戏。他做得非常绝情，甚至不想再和天祁多说一句话。“我想要的你却不能给我你全部，你能给你却又不是我想拥有的。”小琴伤心地对天祁说。可是天祁却极力挽回小琴。由于小琴非常爱天祁，结果他还是放不下这种没有结局的爱情。

到底天祁对小琴有什么感觉呢？只是想玩弄他吗？还是他对小琴也是有爱？

天祁很常把自己的事告诉小琴。甚至他把自己喜欢别人也告诉小琴。小琴啊小琴，你真勇敢，能够面对自己所爱的人喜欢别人。在天祁面前表露出毫不在意的样子，而且还能若无其事地祝福自己的爱人找到幸福。

小琴总是牺牲自己完成别人的幸福。不管天祁对他怎样他还是那样爱他，为他付出所有。到底他们会怎样的结局呢？

他们会在一起吗？还是小琴最总还是会回到原点，做回以前的他？还是小琴最后会受不了，与天祁一刀两断？大家讨论一下吧！

11/03
i am going to sabah with my old fren-han beng and my cousin. the 1st funny thing is the fly should delivered here at 905am but it arrive here 845am. wah/.. it is really the first time i met such things.
after that, we go to kingfisher there to have breakfast. i ate SHUIJIAO MEE. so nice. yum yum... after that we went to my cousin's uncles house. rest n have a bath.

after that, we go out to loafing around. 1st we went to USM. after that, the 1st building/shooping complex i go is Wisma Merdeka. i jus looking around... then afterward go to Harbour-Link Lines.(the place my cousin work.) we did online at there.
after that, i went to meet calina at kingfisher. em.. let me explain more here about kingfisher. here is the place like an island but full with rich man house. but also with many UMS's student. i also meet Ong Kyo.. at there too. hi.. nice to meet u...o..
after that, we back to have rest n another bath. then went out to have dinner n buy something. before back. my cousin n han beng going to buy earings. many funny things was happened during the buying. my cousin even get hurt during wearing the new earing. so painful.. finally we din buy anything.. jus like try to make joke with the seller.. so sfunny.. ha..
planning for next day is going to island, labuan, and poring.. then back... see u all...

finally, we din go labuan n poring. but we jus went to Manukan. a very good try to go there. quite nice place but we din stay longer time.

for that trip we spent more time at shopping mall. buying things. hehe... quite waste. but important thing is i have been Sabah already.. yes. nice....

Sabah.. see u again when free.. hehe.

is a sad day..

i have been service so many year as pianist in the church. but i haven met so embrassed things can happened. Suddenly, i felt myself so lonely n helpless. what i can do..?? i keep on praying to the Lord to let me have a cool mind , seldom down all my mind. and focus on HIM. I am great coz at last i am doing that. but soon it comes up again.. n BOM.. all my frens around suffered.

i decide to give up to service as a pianist at the moment, i hope i can get a clear n have rest about all of this. jus a simple things. hope u ppl can let me rest at the moment. dun force me. i dun wan to let myself to get into more dark place.

i should not blame anyone coz i am the son of the Lord too. all member in the church is ike a big family. why such unhappy things can happened? i should ask myself that is that i am poor in relationship? is that my personality have seriuos problem? thanks a lot to the Lord. coz He lets me have the chance to think about all of this.. may be it is also a trap.. but finally we are all tropped into this trap. it is damn terrible. i not dare to look back. but what can i do?

I still remember a word from somewhere... it is WHAT WILL JESUS DO? the forgive is endless. we need to learn tolerance to all in this world. but i think is still cant.. althought i not really angry but my mouth still continue saying.. that is my big problem.. sometime i really hate myself.. i know God might shake his head.. this son is in sins again. Forgive me father in Lord. Perhaps, in live i have that problem all the time.. make my live keep on problems. Please save me from there, my dear father.

if today Jesus is beside me or if Jesus what will Jesus do on my problems? i am sure He will be more tolerent on that problem.. rather sad Himself but protect HIS enermy. My dear Lord, i really dun have that power as Jesus, i am jus a very normal ppl. For my bad temper, i hope Jesus can forgive me and give my guide on how am i going to overcome all of this.

I really dun know what i am thinking now. jus know it is full of stres. sometime really feel wan close more to the Lord. but i cant.. Pray more is the best way to save myself ... yeah... keep on praying i will ok..

Austin is power... i know Pray is my energy.. YEAH>>> GAMBATE my Lord... U are m WAY, My DIRECTION>.. thanks YOU a lot...